Starting off 2014 with some kind of flu, which is okay. Even though I am sweaty and coughy, I’m willing to just sit and not fill today with musts and have tos and cooking and cleaning and ticking off a year’s worth of changes before noon. Today I will take time to get myself together, do some writing, mentally elaborate half-formed plans. Exploring one’s brain while half-dazed has its benefits. Making crazy lists of essay topics based on the sounds of words rather than their meanings. Dozing and daydreaming. Napping without guilt. Watching neighbors’ Christmas lights blink on at the cusp of sunset. No plans to move beyond the bedroom. Reminding myself that hopes for success are not delusions of grandeur.
Happy New Year